113 Days - I thought my cock was just numb.

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fire spinningI've been an adventurous person most of my life; Theater, Logging, USMC, Backpacking, Fire spinning. I've loved that thrill, that rush, that exhilarating moment of being completely present. I was never good at focusing on it though...In the back of my mind was always sex.

Porn, Hentai, Erotica, Friends, Co workers, strangers....Nothing was off limits for my mind. I chased women wherever I went, losing myself in chasing and catching wherever I went. Looking for the bush or the tent I could jack off in.

My relationships held little self fortitude because my opinions and emotions were so easily manipulated by sex. I lost respect for myself, and found myself coping with stress masturbating several times a day, even in my long term sexually healthy relationships. It would haunt me if I didn't look at new porn, or read the newest doujin as my girlfriend slept in the next room.

I didn't even know it could affect my sensitivity, or my physical performance....Until I found No fap. I thought my cock was just numb and my balls unable to produce enough sperm for my partners enjoyment. I can't expess how sex felt on day 27.....

Now I can trust myself. I can explain to my girlfriend I don't need to cheat or flirt with other women....because I dont even masturbate. I am not controlled by some primal little addiction. I am not afraid to express my emotions or desires because I'm in control of the them.

Since I started nofap, I've been able to conquer my world. I can do cleanses and fasts, I can hold myself to daily workout regiments, I can massage my partner to sleep instead of trying to recreate some porn.

Thank you all so fucking much. I never imagined the damage I had done to myself.

TL:DR- Like many others, porn and sex held me back from many aspects of life and nofap showed me a world I never knew existed.

by funkimonki

LINK - 113 Days, I own my life again