My counter says more, but I consider myself to be PMO free for 75 days today. I want to share my improvements, and give the new rebooters some advice that helped me to keep going. So first of all, when I first started I literally couldn't remember the last time I got an erection that was not caused by porn.
It is my 18th birthday and I feel a massive change happening in my life. This may be long but I really just need to write this down. All my life I have been very shy, anti-social, awkward, not confident, the list goes on.
I finally hit my goal after 4-5 years fighting my PMO addiction. It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. This challenge has really changed my life in so much more ways than just No more PMO.
I had been fapping since my early childhood and watching porn on and off since my early twenties. Few years ago I recognized that porn was a problem for me and that I was probably a porn addict. This habit was controlling my life. I had trouble getting things done.
I had been waiting to enter something in here until I had some success to report. I failed with ed a couple of times during the process but managed to keep going despite that. I finally got past 6 months and decided to try to see if I could see any progress.
For 3 years, give or take, I suffered from terrible ED. I would guess I was able to get and maintain a decent enough erection for sex about 20% of the time, if that. And failure like that, of course, begets hurt feelings and anxiety and thus more failure.
My success story is rather quick . I'm 43, and I was totally addicted to PMO for about 27 years. The addiction has taken a lot of my lifetime from me. In January 2014, I became top-serious to get out. I said to me "either get out or die".
The first and most important thing you should take from this post is this: I have probably failed more times than you have tried. I have been trying and failing for two years, and only now have I achieved a 90 day streak. I used to fap around 8-10 times per day, when I woke up, before and after work, and while going to bed. I was a serious addict, and I have overcome this and love myself for it.
Let me start with my pmo history. I started looking at porn at the age of ten then started masturbating at the age of 12. Continued this pattern until my clean break in March of this year. I'm 25 so that makes 15 years total of porn addiction.
Working from home the last year and PMO was way too easy and way too frequent. As the title says, decided Hard Mode was the only option after a few pretty bad instances of not being able to keep hard enough to really have decent sex.
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