I had almost forgotten the period of my life where I struggled with masturbation and porn. It was so long ago. But I did have a problem - and I beat it. So, I thought I would share the story and the wonderful things that came from giving up.
Today was the first day in a while where I woke up in a good mood...If you read my previous post, I was kind of a mess dealing with physical symptoms of delusion, anxiety, depression, rage, libidolessness and the overall fun of a deep flatline.
This year has been tough. After trying for years to give up PMO, I would find myself back on the same sites days later. I'd rationalize or make excuses. I had deleted two flash drives worth of photos downloaded over the past year...even destroyed the drives, thinking I was done!!
I remember when I first got internet porn and thinking, "Oh shit, this is awesome!!" I was totally oblivious to the fact that it would have been much healthier to reign in the fapping and go out and try and get a girlfriend, or at least be doing something more productive
This is in no way an outlet to brag, but an affirmation of what is possible with NoFap. I'm a semi-active Tinderer. If you're busy or you're in a new city like me that it can be OK for practicing your game.
I don't think I was addicted to PMO as most people on this subreddit, but with things like this, it's hard to judge yourself. I was PMO'ing a few times a week and I really didn't know that it was causing me any negatives, but I'd definitely stopped enjoying it like I once used to
I made a post about two weeks ago saying that I haven't watched porn for two weeks and it was because I saw this TED talk video on how porn fucks up your head. And in that post I said how I had better sex dreams and woke up with harder morning woods after not watching porn for two weeks.
As cliched as it sounds, I never actually imagined reaching 90 days PMO free, it had just become such a regular part of my life. At first, I thought I was unhappy for no reason, and porn was completely normal thing for a 17, now 18 year old guy to watch
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