Let’s start off with the Ugly. My addiction to porn started with exposure at about 8 years old. Two Playboy mags from a friend's house. Now for some of you young guys, (with sarcasm) Playboy is a printed mag. and the only way to view porn back when I was a kid.
So where to start, what to say? 34 yo male, been PMOing since at least 1992. At the beginning of December of last year, shortly after Thanksgiving, I discovered this community (and reddit in general) after reading an article on TheBlaze.
Smeagol is free! After spending years in a periodic pattern of not getting more than 30 days, I have had no porn, no masturbation, no edging, no "almost porn" and pretty much no desire to look at porn at all for this streak.
I am on day 101. I began watching porn out of loneliness in 2004 when I was 15. I felt lonely and socially awkward at the time. Being treated badly by "friends" at school and surrounded by beautiful girls who were beginning to have sex, my self-confidence began to plummet and I began to watch porn as a lazy way to escape reality.
I started using pornography + masturbation probably around 13/14 years old and had the terrible habit for 19 years. I would probably engage in the activity a few times a month but when it would happen I'd have a tendency to binge for a day or two and my life would suffer dramatically.
Question: When you read about Nike using child labor, did you stop buying their shoes? When you heard about how Wal-Mart pays some of the lowest wages in the U.S., and that they use nefarious business practices to put the competition out of business, did you cease shopping there?
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