Well it's been a long road like 2.5 years. I started young probably around 11 or 12 and used to watch and masturbate to porn at least twice a day for a long time. I didn't experience any ED tho until college.
It's been a year since I did the dirty. Stopping was fiendish. Six years of daily dipping into the naughtybox, it was like being unplugged from the matrix - everything was shattered and I found myself raw, naked, shocked and covered in white sticky crap. It took months for my brain to recover. I felt like shit.
I'm a 39 year old male, and have been on and off the NoFap train for about a year. Longest streak 55 days. But also had some weeks/months where I'd completely relapsed. Currently at 40 days, though this time (thankfully and unapologetically) it hasn't been on hard mode.
I spent about two yrs in denial before this streak. I lost my v-card on day 70. Suffered from PIED since I could remember (I'm 23 M). What was worse than the PIED is the desensitization to the world. I found it hard at time to enjoy anything.
I was facing horrible social anxiety, terrible fear, weak when I was PMO' ing. Plus I was getting addicted to shemale porn. Now after 6months of nopmo with several relapses I thing gay porn is not my taste.. I feel as strong as sun.. STAY STRONG bros...
So it has been 69 days of hard mode for me. My last relapse was the 5th of June after a busted 19 day streak. I have decided to continue NoFap for the rest of my life. Before NoFap I was an entirely different human being inside and out. Weak, reserved, lazy, tired, void of emotions, and a shell of my former self.
I had weird fetishes and could not stay hard during sex, 80 odd days in now fap now and I feel like I could screw the world and do a pretty good job at it as well. Sex anxiety has gone away I am now having great sex with my girlfriend.
I don't even know where to start with this. I am an addict, I didn't even know it. I grew up all my life surrounded by drug addicts whom I loathed. I aspired to be the exact opposite of them. I never expected to be an addict myself. A sex addict, and a porn addict.
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