This is not hard-mode anymore; what I consider hardmode, is fapping five times a day until so much life-energy is sapped out of you that you feel no ambition, have no energy to do anything, feel depressed anxious and can look nobody in the eye or hold a normal conversation.
So this is my 90th day report. It might seem like a lifetime to all you new guys but I stopped counting days some time ago. I checked my badge the other day and it said '85' so I figured I had to write a 90 day report.
When my soon-to-be wife and I started dating, I shared with her that I had a history with pornography and masturbation but it hadn't been a problem for a while (a couple years). She understood that it was something most guys struggled with at some time or another and she helped me feel better about being open with her.
I want to make this "short" and simple. I just want to give some back story and let you all know what happened. I am currently age 22. I started like most of you, found porn when I was 12 or 13 and have been hooked ever since. I would PMO daily at least once since about age 15. Around the age of 18 I had sex with several girls and that's when I first started noticing ED.
Around 3 months back, I made the decision to finally quit porn. It had been an integral part of my life from when I was 13 years old (I am 26 now). I realized that I have a problem when even after having sex with many beautiful women, I would still need to fap to get an orgasm after the act. I also used to be semi-hard with real women and super hard when fapping to porn.
I had started this nofap thing a few months ago, saw minimal results, and relapsed back to the pronz two times. After failing to get it up again and again (and wasting $400 on an escort haha not my best moment that was the most embarrassing event of my life).
This is my first post and I thought it would be fitting to write something today on day 250. I remember becoming curious as to whether fapping was something that was holding me back in life – it certainly seemed to drain me of my motivation to do things.
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