This may be a long post, and some of what I'm going to say might sound contradictory to some of the messages we've gotten from this site, but know that the amount of good this site has created is astronomical, and hundreds of thousands of us from different walks of life have been helped back on our feet.
Made the 60 day mark :). Had no internet porn till I was over 30. Porn had negative effects on real life relationships (not as exciting...). Very skeptical about noFAP. Discovered new revelations about myself, and noFAP's positive effects on my life.
My path to recovery from porn induced ED has been a long one. For the longest time I thought something was physically wrong with me - i.e a venous leak - and never made the connection between porn and my inability to maintain an erection.
Started masturbating when i was in my early teens and just used my imagination and some pictures of women in bikinis. i masturbated every single day at least once. when i got into high school i started fooling around with girls and had no issue with getting erections for any type of sex and was still masturbating every single day. moved onto college and still had no issue getting erections with women for sex and i also started watching porn online.
My four month nofap anniversary is a couple of days ago. It is exactly one month after I met my current girlfriend, who was the straw that broke the camels back on me finally breaking the PMO cycle. She was so sweet and understanding and I wanted her so bad but could not perform and for the first time in my life I said I want to be better, not just for her, but for myself. And then I read, read, read and decided to undertake the program.
Well gentlemen, the last straw was when I found myself watching porn even in Maui. That is where I had enough!! The most beautiful place with beautiful women and for a short hour in between I had to go digital again.
I started NoFap because after one night with my girl friend I noticed some serious PIED. I had noticed it before but thought it was due to being tired, or drinking too much or some other reason. This time it was none of those things and it freaked me out.
I have finally made it to the 90 days! :D (Well almost ;)) At the start I really never thought it would be achievable, it seemed so far away. Now I feel like I will not masturbate ever again or at least in a long time. It has been such an amazing journey, with many ups and downs, so I want to share it with you guys. Hopefully you get inspired to keep on continuing.
I can´t believe how I feel today ...I compare my feelings to may 2013 and 2012. I was a fat shy adult who had social anxiety and couldn´t stand eye contact to dogs or children ....a really dark time in my life.
I deleted my old account but i realized lately, this addiction will ALWAYS be there, always there to tempt and corrupt you so even after this long I've been having some hard days. My story: 18 years of PMO almost twice a day, low libido, low test= Poor memory, focus, attention, no muscles, blurry vision, no lucid dreams, waking up at 4, 5 am in the mornings + disturbed sleep all night. Socially awkward, no confidence, hot flashes, sweating if someone talks to me, can't hold eye contact and many, many more.
I started masturbating to porn when I was 14, My first sexual experience was a disaster - I couldn't get it up. From then on my sexual life has been kind of like tossing a coin, sometimes I could get it up, sometimes I couldn't.
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