This is the Baron, checking in at my 130 day marker. So far, I suppose I've seen some changes. When I first stopped PMO it was because I realized that it has been a major influence in my life for a long time, both sexually and non-sexually.
Before this streak of 77 days or whatever I'm on, I had been relapsing pretty badly, I even wrote in my journal about it. I'd completely fallen off the wagon and was in a general spiral of self destruction and malcontent. I know we've all been there so I will spare the details :p. I decided for the 5th time or so this year that enough was enough and this time it stuck
Before rebooting I was VERY anxious, panic attacks, hypochondria, depressive and obsessive thoughts. I was fapping like 1 times a day or other day just for pleasure and because i was bored. When I didn't had something to do, searching for a perfect video was like heaven.
24 years old. Hardmode. At day 21 and day 25 I dry humped a girl and orgasmed. Watched porn maybe 7 to 8 times and edged accordingly, with regret because it does slow down progress. You can feel this afterwards when you walk down the street and look at girls.
First, let me tell you all this is my last post I have no idea on what day I am at. I stopped counting a while ago...I don`t know why. I just didn't`t care anymore about the number If I look back, I decided for the no PMO after I fooled around with a beautiful young woman and couldn't`t get an erection. Nothing at all.
I'm in my forties and have been using porn off-and-on since I was a teenager. I wouldn't call myself an addict but I suppose I have wasted my fair share of time on porn over the years. It so much harder to avoid these days. I really pity young people growing up with high-speed internet.
I am posting this now, because I won't be able to do it when I reach 90 days. And hell yeah, I will! The text is very long but I hope it is entertaining and you can pull something out of it (for yourself of course).
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