I first realized I had a problem with porn and compulsive masturbation about two years ago (age 19), when I realized that I couldn't perform sexually with the girl I was dating at the time. Even though she was attractive, I had to fantasize about porn, but even that wasn't a guarantee. Around this time my porn use tended to gravitate towards more and more extreme types of porn, moving from 'regular' porn to BDSM porn and finally to gay/transsexual porn.
Started PMO at 14 when my dad got us high-speed internet and I discovered torrents. I would download dozens at a time and MO several times a day. My mom only had dial-up, but I made do with random pics of naked celebrities or MILFS. This habit continued on through high school, where I was totally apathetic to having sex, or even a girlfriend for that matter.
When I first came across this sub months ago, I thought the whole premise was silly. But I've been on a personal self improvement streak, like my own little personal path to zen, and I decided that there must be something to this based on what all of you guys say. Holy shit. No fapping and no looking at porn for 60 days is probably one of the smartest decisions I've ever made and I would recommend it to anyone, because it will permanently change your life. The amount you learn about yourself and about sexuality is enormous.
What's up everyone. I'm 36 and I was addicted to porn since middle school, and extreme porn since I started college. I can't get into the details of how extreme the porn was, but basically, no woman would ever want to find out that I was jerking off to this shit.
I've never had any ED problems before this year in college. After two times getting whiskey dick earlier this year I realized there might be some underlying cause. So in July I stopped watching porn. That was before I found this subreddit or YBOP. Just from not watching porn I flatlined for a solid month or so. It sucked.
Background: Just posting this personal experience for any frustrated fapstronauts out there. PMO since age 13, I'm 20 now. Tried NoFap a few times, lasted three days once, then a week a few times, the absolute longest I could last was 20 days one time.
I've been struggling with this basically for the last 9 or so months. I had some serious low points, I cried, and I doubted if my life would ever turn around. It's hard for me to even put all of this into words honestly. Now, I have my life back. Like all of us on this forum, I was just so susceptible to porn that ittook control of my mind. Eventually it took control of my dick.
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