So today is my day. I can't believe I did it. It's like I'm 16 again. When I go to the fitness centre and I see a nice girl in tight leggings for training, I get a stone-hard erection which lasts. I never felt more like a man as nowadays. I do not have the feeling that I have to abstain from fapping anymore, cos fapping isn't important to me anymore.
I was addicted to sex, pornography, and masturbation. My fiance has also been doing the nofap hardmode challenge with me, as he was addicted also, but his 90 days was about 2 weeks ago. Here's how I've changed.
So, today it is 90 days since I started my second serious attempt at this. I can't say it's been super easy, but it hasn't been super hard either. I started the challenge in part to cure a few cases of DE I'd been experiencing with my (then) girlfriend, and in part because it seemed like a good way to test my willpower.
I'm 29, had PMO'd for the last 10+ years, while having normal sexual relationships with women... then over the last 2 years, my porn use escalated, I escalated into some fetish type stuff, and slowly my erection quality/strength went down until I had total PIED and even had trouble getting hard while masturbating.
I am now confident i will not relapse again, except for a few days of wet dreams, which don't count as a relapse anyway.. I am now 100% sure i have beaten the habit.. however I must remain cautious.. Here are a few of the changes to my life
I have been browsing this forum for 3 years ever since my visual snow started. This is my first post where I wanted to share my story and road to recovery. My visual snow started when I was in 2nd year University.
I was never terribly addicted but did NoFap more as a test. I still feel much more in control and overall happier. I talk to girls A LOT and I barely need to "spit game". I get looks and just ask for their contact info and it's basically pretty easy.
So in only twice in my life I have had this feeling before. The first time, when I relapsed it was back in April was during my biggest reboot (40 days), since then I haven't felt that way...until two days ago! I am feeling that passion for life again, for only the second time in my life REAL Libido. In this reboot attempt, it has only crept up on me in the last couple of days.
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