I’m writing this to talk about my experiences after quitting porn. This is not meant as an exemplar for what could happen, but if you find some inspiration from this, I’m happy to have helped. I had struggled for almost half my life with pornography in various forms, from text to live actions to cartoons. Porn served to distort my perceptions of fantasy and intimacy, and I had difficulty maintaining relationships because of it. I found myself depressed and traumatized at the person I was turning into, so I made a choice to quit.
For a long time, I was fearful of opening up to people about my experiences, however, with time, came acceptance that Porn is not who I am. With the help of friends and loved ones, I found strength to combat my monkey head-on. After challenging myself to turn my life around, I found success. When I started my rehabilitation, I was a shell of myself. My then-girlfriend at the time was able to help me focus on a future, something that seemed out of reach.
In the past year, I have moved in with my girlfriend, got engaged, and am working towards finishing my Bachelor’s degree. I found success in life, and I have accepted the realities of my actions, and continually work to improve my self, and my way of thinking.
Change is possible, while difficult. However, with difficulty, comes opportunity to do better, to prove to yourself that you are ok, and that your monkey belongs in another circus. One that you are no longer a part of. You will feel fear, lust, anxiety, and temptation, however, that is only human, and it will pass with perseverance. You are as able to change as you want to be, so keep wanting to become the best version of yourself.
Thanks for the support,
LINK – A Year in Review, 365+ Days Sober
by Mr. X
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