I fapped for 40 years…to….porn!! And I never had an ED problem until the last 3.5 years. Interestingly the non-Internet-tube-site porn was causing MAJOR problems (more on that below), but I just didn’t know it.
I thought it was age, or the fact that I’m out of shape, or boredom or whatever… until I found YBOP and understood how INTERNET porn overloads our limbic systems and causes us to become unresponsive to real girls and sex with them.
Now, I’m under no illusions that just because I’ve gone six months without ANY porn that I am now able to go back to non-Internet porn. I believe I have permanently broken that system. So I would no more look at ANY porn than smoke a cigarette as both would land me right back in chain-smoking/fapping land.
Here’s the kicker. For the ENTIRE 40 years I was broken in non-ED types of ways.
· I expected all women to do everything and didn’t care if they were not comfortable…for cryin’ out loud, thousands of porn girls do it
· I expected all sex to be like porn sex (which makes objects out of women and does extremely little to provide them with love, dignity, respect, kindness, etc.)
· I was NEVER satisfied with sex with any woman… no matter what she did, how often she did it, etc. it was never enough
· I destroyed many relationships over the above
· I was never happy with my sex life
· I was never happy in relationships because I didn’t work on them…didn’t need to… if she got pissed or whatever, I had my porn harem to satisfy my sexual needs
· sex just didn’t feel awesome like when I was a kid just after losing my virginity… I mean, it was very good, but not so incredibly awesome that I could actually feel every cell inside of her touching every cell on me and all of those cells firing electrical pleasure signals that explode all over me… now it does again…
· all things pleasurable in life (colors, music, touch, conversation, comedy, helping others, being kind, experiencing kindness from others, etc.) are now extremely pleasurable where for many, many years those things had become dull…
It’s amazing.
(More, when asked about changes in confidence levels)
I tend to gloss over those because of the nearly certain chants of ‘placebo.’ But since you asked:
- major confidence
- able to face confrontation where I have never been able to before
- I now communicate my desires clearly, and without being emotionally hurtful. Because of this ALL my relationships have improved over 100%.
- People now know what I expect, and I understand what people expect in all of my relationships. Nothing is hidden, everything is on the table. And everybody knows where everybody stands.
- I no longer accept things I don’t want in my life, including actions and words from people who are close to me. Yet, despite my confronting these issues, my relationships are closer than ever. Taking the time to communicate with dignity and respect validates everybody, and increases mutual respect.
- my business life is better than ever. I’m focused, and responsible, and I’m solving problems every day.
- I have more balance… I work at work times (off today) and play at play times (like now)
It seems that once you head gets clear, it becomes easier to make the right decisions… to do the right things… your entire life improves from making the right decisions and doing the right things…
Oh, and amazing, mind blowing sex, that makes me feel like a man and her feel like a woman doesn’t hurt…
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