I have been attempting NoFap for two years. Porn had consumed my life. I was watching it constantly not realizing how damaging it was. I wish I could take back the endless hours I spent watching webcams or videos not getting out and meeting new people. Even in relationships with a good sex life I still would watch behind my partners back.
After a 3 year relationship ended I stayed single for another year and pmod probably every day. I finally met a new girl that I was crazy about. We had gone on a few dates and I brought her back to my place one night and during sex I couldn’t get it up. She was gorgeous and begging me to fuck her but I couldn’t get it to work. She left awkwardly and after she left I finished to porn. That moment I knew I had a problem.
I came across this community and read the symptoms of ED and depression and it hit home. I almost cried knowing that others are going through similar sutuations. I thought it would be easy to kick but I couldn’t go a whole week without watching porn.
I hit some decent streaks every now and then but always relapsed. Even with relapses i still felt improvements. Women became human again not just sex objects. I hit the gym and bulked up and felt amazing. I’ve had two job promotions in the last year. My anxiety is nearly non-existent whereas before I had to take ativan for panic attacks. Haven’t even come close to one since starting NoFap
The worst thing for me is the flatline. I felt like my dick would never work again. I would see beautiful women and know I’m attracted to them but no arousal. That’s what kept bringing me back to porn.
I finally just committed to stopping pmo regardless of how I felt. It was tough and I fought off urges every weekend. Gym, reading, meditating, going out more helped me make it to 90 days. It felt great to get to that mark I never thought I could do it. I started getting erections more often and could usually get one just by sensation without needing visual stimulation of porn. 90 days without even peeking was a huge accomplishment for me. I’ve quit cigarettes, pot, and soda way easier than I did with porn.
This past month had been kind of rough. New job started a month ago and it’s been great but a lot to learn and stressful. My grandmother passed away and that was hard. I’ve been rejected a couple times which normally doesn’t bother me but recently just killed some confidence. The last few days urges have been unbearable. I gave in but I don’t feel horrible about it. I think I needed it to relieve some stress. I know now that I can make it 90 days and the lifestyle changes have stuck. Porn isn’t a part of my life, successes are happening for me, I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
I’m in this for the long haul. Day 0 but I’m easily going another 90 days and then some. NoFap is an amazing community. I thank you all for sharing stories and reaching out for help. Keep at it and stay strong you are all on a great path.
Thanks for reading my story felt so good to finally make a 90 days post! We’re gonna make it!
I’m 29.
LINK – Made it 95 days after two years of trying. Just relapsed. Here’s my story.
By lostinhere00
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