Who am I? I am normal heterosexual man. I was thinking that I am into femdom, or trans women, or asexual, but now i know that i am normal. Why I started pmo? Curiosity, good feeling etc. Why it escalated to femdom and shemale porn? I was looking normal porn in begin, later i moved to lesbian, after that i started to watch shemales and femdom. After long time of pmo, your brain is so damaged that it can not be aroused by female body.
After that you seek something shocking, scary and disgusting. Why? Because of dopamine. When you watch porn, you feel good because of dopamine, but later you need more dopamine and you start to watch extreme, not normal stuff.
Why I continued to watch porn? not enough free time to find gf, bullying, social anxiety etc.
What will i do now? Now i see that this is working. I will continue, I will try to make 180 days no pmo. next step is to get rid of this fear of women, or so called social anxiety.
And something for the end: Now I can be aroused when I see boobs. I couldn’t when i was teenager. i am 30 now. I had 3 wet dreams in those 90 days. Now I am healthier that I was when i was 14.
And for those who will ask how long I was rebooting. I stopped watching porn 23. November 2015. I had some relapses. i had 5 streaks – 20, 40. 60. 160-170 days 231 days and now 90 days. it lasted so long to be able to feel normal feeling because my brain was damaged with porn so much, I was watching porn 15 years.
Am I rebooted? Well I will say that my brain is in better state than it was, but I will continue no pmo, to see if I can progress more. So I am not completely rebooted, but at least I have normal fantasies, and I can be aroused bu women with wide hips. So, I am not sure.
Question for everybody, am I rebooted if I see that women are sexy? I like big a** it makes me aroused. I didn’t tried to have sex, so i do not know if i would have erection.
And never give up. I am not Shakespeare to make nice text. but it is what i think and how I feel. I think that this text is ok.
LINK – 90 days. Now i know who I am and why I started pmo.
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