I’ve been on my NoFap reboot healing journey for roughly 1.5 years now, there were highs and there were lows, relapses and long stretches. For some reason I never created an account earlier, but I frequently visited this site and other places like Reddit that talks about this and other people’s journeys for support. Before I begin some of the details of my story may be quite revolting.
My descent into hell began as a 13-14 year old looking at girls dressed in bikinis in magazines, innocent enough but the start of a terrible problem. It obviously progressed to internet porn and masturbating anywhere from 5-10 times day. Once I turned 18 I began to become more bold, searching for escorts on backpage and other higher end providers online and having sex with them, but
I knew something was wrong when they were standing completely naked in front of me and my dick was completely limp. It was perplexing to me, I could masturbate all day to pixels on a computer screen but when a real life naked woman was with me I couldn’t even get hard if I wanted to.
From there I got into femdom, my online porn history would be of cuckolding, humiliation, ballbusting, etc etc I would go on to hire women to do these kinds of things to me in real life too. I hated it, after climaxing i’d feel so disgusting I wanted to die. It was a true addiction.
One night I hit rock bottom, I had just turned 24 and I had never had a girlfriend. Never had sex without paying for it and I knew that wasn’t normal. I cried in my room and I decided to take a shot in the dark…I downloaded a dating app, took the best possible pictures of myself possible and hoped for the best.
A few months later I met my current girlfriend, from that first day of contact I haven’t engaged in any of the above things mentioned. She’s 22 and I’m 25 now and I guess I was lucky in the fact that she was a virgin and wanted to take things slow, which was a huge relief to me because I was terrified of not being able to get it up if things got intimate with us. Our sex life consisted of kissing/cuddling for about a year, but as the months went by those kissing and cuddle sessions I’d notice my guy getting hard under my pants. I feel having a girl to do these things with really helped me recover.
Fast forward to today I know for certain that every time I get naked with my girlfriend I WILL get an erection and I WILL maintain it. For those of you who were in my position..don’t give up hope. If I managed to crawl out of hell so can you. Nofap works, it’s all about willpower.
LINK – My Story : Successfully rebooted in 1.5 years, it works.
by Sharksvv
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