Hey guys, it’s Jackst33r reporting after 100 days of abstinence from porn and masturbation. Some of you (more specifically @Fable32 I believe) asked for my 90-day report so here it is. I learned a lot, and I’m back here to share it with you guys.
There’s prolly gonna be a lot here since I just downed a bottle of red, so I’ll try to make it presentable.
First thing’s first; a little intro. I got into sissy shit through porn escalation. Rape > Cuckold > Sissy. I’ve been in the hole for years. I figured something was wrong when I realized that I have erectile dysfunction with all the girls I dated for a whole year. I did some research on why a healthy 21-year-old would have ED or loss of libido, and then I discovered the side effects of porn (on YBOP), and decided to quit this shit. A detail that I’ve never shared before is that I even got close with a man. In all honesty, it wasn’t enjoyable at all. I wanted it to be done as soon as possible. After it was done, I was certain that this was not me. You really don’t have to try it. It’s not who we guys are.
I stayed off porn and masturbation for 101 days. I wasn’t gonna post on this sub again, until I got drunk lol. So here’s what I’ve learned:
Science: Sissy addiction is connected to homosexual OCD. I don’t know if you’ve heard of it, but basically it’s fearing that you’ve become gay. If you check whether you’re horny every time you see a chiseled guy; if you think about fucking girls and see how it reacts with your dick, etc. you have in some part, HOCD. You can read more about it on the YBOP website. It’s a real bitch just like regular OCD’s, so don’t expect one subreddit post to heal you. This shit will stick with you for some time. You will keep wondering if you’re gay for a long time. Two very important truths I learned from HOCD treatment and research are: a) you will wonder about it for some time, which is OK and doesn’t make you gay; b) doing gay stuff will not heal you or make you understand your sexuality. The best advice I can give here is for you to find a sex therapist that knows about HOCD. They will make a world of difference. DO NOT buy into that “be yourself” crap from liberal shrinks. They don’t know what they’re talking about.
Myth: “After [INSERT] period of time, I will stop thinking about it.” — I’m guilty of believing this since I did stop thinking about it for a time, but later it came back. You don’t know how long it will take for this to leave you. All you need to know is that you want out, that this is a false fantasy, and that you CAN live with the occasional thought. The mod and other seniors on this reddit are really cool guys, and some of them even tested this myth for themselves. Still, they are here. It doesn’t pass after the 90-day mark, or any previously mark set by yourself. You cannot know how long it takes to reboot from sissy porn. One study on YBOP says it could even take years. Don’t let this discourage you. If you relapse now, the moment of freedom will be delayed for much later than you planned.
Mistake: Tonight is the closest I’ve come to relapsing. It happened before. I visited some subreddits, but in all honesty, when I saw all those people believing this is actually the only road they have to walk on, I kinda laughed and turned to this sub to clear my thoughts. I had some moments of weakness in the past 100 days which is fine; but I never watched hypno and I never masturbated to anything. I need the time off. I need to put this OCD in its place. If I keep going back and then patting myself saying how no one is perfect, I’m pretty sure I will never be off the shit. Today, after 100 days, I can fight off the OCD pretty well. I didn’t fail tonight, and I think I have the accumulated strength to not fail anytime soon.
I wanted to say much more but this will do for now. I may stick around for a while, so feel free to ask questions. You can find my earlier posts somewhere on this sub. My whole story is there. Look for “30 days NoSissy”, “Why I’m leaving this subreddit”, and another one. Stay strong, men!
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