UPDATE April, 2021
This is a rare “yay me” moment 🙂 Had sex Tuesday night. I had NO issues maintaining an erection. No anxiety, no worry, no rushing, just fun. I also had NO PE, which made me so happy I wanted to cry. I had not had an orgasm in 50 days. The vegan-exercise-avoid the internet program has been making me feel amazing, and is forcing the rewire. I’m giving my brain no other outlet. I just wanted to share, as I have felt reboot going super slow lately. 3 weeks of great diet and exercise and minimal access to tv/internet and I’m seeing nice gains again. Consider this if you feel stuck my brothers. Have a Sober day! J.
UPDATE July, 2020
Rebooted Finally!!! Huge progress all of the sudden!!! It finally happened to me, and by god it was all worth it! All the suffering and pain, fear, all the agony of recovery! Worry and anxiety when I go to have sex is GONE! Multiple (7) times this past week, with no issues.
The anxiety and sweating and worry before sex are FUCKING GONE. Now I’m looking forward to it each time. My brain wires are reconnected!!! My sex drive is back, and better than ever! No flatline symptoms or orgasm hangover either! My mind is focused and clear.
And the PE is really fading fast! I’m back in control of my orgasms again! No more flatline symptoms at all. Thank you all for this gift, because that is what it is. I HAVE MY LIFE BACK!!!!!!! My wife is happy, I’m over the moon!. I’m trying not to cry as I write this. Alexander, Gabe, Gary, Noah, and all of you guys, THANK YOU! I did it! I REBOOTED!!!!!!!!!! You can too!!! If my addicted ass can recover, you can too! Stick with it!!!!!!! It works, and it is worth it!!!!!
[History – May, 2019]
The support on this site, RebootNation, and YBOP are literally the only reasons I am alive today. I mean that. I was ready for suicide,gun was in my hand and loaded 8 months ago. I was going to lose my family due to PMO. NoFAP, Gary Wilson, Gabe Deem, and a well timed response by Noah Church saved me. And all of you. Tomorrow is 299 Days.
Today is day 298 of NoFap for me, and I am a very different guy than I was before:
Me: 43 year old law enforcement professional. Married 10 years.
Before Nofap: selfish, demanding, irritated all the time with wife. Drank 3 nights a week, a few beers. Whenever I didn’t get what I wanted sexually right away, I would PMO. This had increased over the past few years, resulting in weaker erections and more demands of wife (who is gorgeous, educated, and in love with me, but all this made it so we had sex 1x a month or less. She was just a lust object to me, I am ashamed to say). PMO nearly ended my marriage when she found it on my phone.
After Nofap: PIED ended on day 265. With AMAZING hot, connected sex with my wife. I feel better every single day.
This has been hell. Ups and downs, suicidal and then feeling good. I never knew I had PIED until I stopped PMO, and viewing porn (when caught, I was told she would divorce me if I did it again.) That was all i needed. NoFap was do or die. I wasn’t going to lose my family for this shit. I never went back to PMO or fapping. Four times my wife got so frustrated with my mood swings and said she was going to leave. Plus lack of attention as I was trying to reboot (I was not very good at communication in the beginning.) We are now as we were 5 years ago, before I started daily PMO, then escalated to EVERY SPARE MINUTE PMO. I had no idea what i was doing to my brain. If i could take it back i would. But I am well on the way to recovery. Stay the course. STICK WITH IT. Journal so you can see your ups and downs and track your moods. I HAD NO IDEA I COULD HAVE SEX until I TRIED. Put yourself out there, risk failure. Here is a list of my ups and down days, in a cycle:
22up…FLATLINE-43 down….9up….7down…33up…7down….7up…6down….13 up….6down…7up…6down…9 up….5 down, 5 up, 3 down, 11 up, 2 down, 3 up, 1 down, 1 up, 3 down, 8 up, 2 not so flat, 1 up, 1 down, 11 up , 1 down, 2 up, 7 down, 7 up….( updated 12/27)… PIED ended On day 265 with PIV
I started dreaming again on DAY 194- Dreams are a sign reward circuit is HEALING
Dreams: Day 74, 194, 201, 202, 204, 205, 206, 207, 208, 209, 211, 212, 214, 217, 221, 222, 225, 226, 227, 228, 229, 231, 234, 235, 236, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,243, 246, 247, 248, 249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 259, 260, 261, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271
Morning Wood: 72, 88, 150, 198, 205, 206, 208, 211, 214, 221, 222, 229, 231, 235, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271…..and keeps getting better.
Abstinence periods, by duration: 34 days, 71 days, 70 days, 92, 5 so far… after 92 days, while moods were a little down, I I had really hot sex. This broke my flatline. Gary Wilson was right, sometimes a long rebooter needs an orgasm to get moving again. I had sex for the next two nights. I am spacing orgasms to make sure i am not going to go back into flatline. Had no “orgasm hangover.”
Suppliments: L-Arginine- 3000 mg per day, broken up in to 3 doses. Helps enormously with anxiety that comes with flatline.
Stay strong my friends. I am crying as I write this. I am alive. I have hope. My dick works again. My marriage is really doing well. Communication is great. My kids love spending time with me. I am sober of PMO, I don’t drink anymore. My wife and I are awesome We always loved each other, but now we are incredibly close again. I am happy.
STICK WITH NOFAP. IT WORKS. So many times I almost threw in the towel. Stick with it, you will recover. I did. PIED and all.
I love you guys.
LINK – Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
By NOFAPSuccess2018 (a law enforcement professional)
Update (by private correspondence):
Here is the final data from my reboot. Never ever thought I would say that, lol.
FLATLINE
22up…43 down….9up….7down…33up…7down…
.7up…6down….13 up….6down…7up…6down…9 up….5 down, 5 up, 3 down, 11 up, 2 down, 3 up, 1 down, 1 up, 3 down, 8 up, 2 not so flat, 1 up, 1 down, 11 up , 1 down, 2 up, 7 down, 10 up, 4 down, 16 up, 5 down, 5 up, 11 down, 22 up, 12 down, 9 up, 8 down, 11 up, 10 down, 22 up so far updated 5/8)… PIED ended On day 266 with PIV………………..23
FLATLINE CYCLES, which are now almost unnoticeable.
Dreams: Day 74, 194, 201, 202, 204, 205, 206, 207, 208, 209, 211, 212, 214, 217, 221, 222, 225, 226, 227, 228, 229, 231, 234, 235, 236, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,243, 246, 247, 248, 249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 259, 260, 261, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271, 272, 273, 274, 278, 279, 280, 281, 283, 284, 285, 287, 288, 289, 290, 292, 293, 294, 295, 296, 297, 298, 299, 300, 301, 302, 303, 304, 305, 306, 310, 312, 316, 317, 318, 319, 320, 321, 323, 324, 325, 327, 330, 331, 332, 337, 339, 340, 341, 334, 344, 346, 348, 350, 351, 353, 354, 356, 357, 358, 359, 360, 361, 362, 363, 364, 365, 366, 367,368, 369, 370, 371, 372, 373, 374, 375, 376, 377, 378, 379, 380, 381, 383, 384, 385, 386, 387, 388…Daily lol
MW: 72, 88, 150, 198, 205, 206, 208, 211, 214, 221, 222, 229, 231, 235, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271, 273, 274, 284, 287, 301, 305, 306, 320, 321, 331, 332, 334, 346, 350, 367, 381,386, 387, and on and on…..
Day 366. Noticed very calm in mind.
NIGHTMARES: 237, 371, 372 380
Today is 5/8/2019. I have had sex 4 times in the past week, it keeps getting better. Performance anxiety is fading away…….Flatline down cycles are almost unnoticeable. An hour of irritation, maybe. And not bad, either. Motivated, focused, and on the job. Great at home, marriage is amazing. I AM HEALING.
Gary and Gabe, I owe you my life. I take that debt very seriously. If you ever need anything, please reach out to me. I am forever in your debt. I cannot express how different my world is now. I am ME again. The healing will continue. For that, and the help, I am grateful.
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