Hey all. I will make this short.
Yesterday I talked with some girl in the elevator and I got a boner!
It felt so amazing to have an erection again to REAL GIRLS and not fake ones!
I had some huge urges last week, and when I had the erection, I understand why I should keep going.
Thanks for reading folks,
I will upload more stuff one I reach Day 60!
Background:
I never watched normal porn. I hated it.
I wanted to watch foot and femdom videos (not bdsm).
I just wanted to feel controllable.all my childhood i i wanted to be humiliated by girls, thought they were superior to me. I even had “sadist” girls that loved to hit me and I just loved it.
I transmitted these emotions to porn.
I still have these emotions, and probably I they won’t disappear anytime soon, so I just stay out of porn, Don’t look at girls feet and don’t fantasize about it.
Hopefully it will get better.
Later:
I got some help with my NLP therapist.
We managed to find the reason why i thought my self “less” from women.
It appears that i had some kind of an event at age 4 , that caused me to thing that I am a “distorted” in terns of my sexuality.
After a while we fixed it, and now I still I get some glances at girls feet. But as soon as it happens, I just look up for her eyes or other socially acceptable body parts.
LINK – I finally got a boner! (Day 45)
By AssaultHaund
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