36 days in! I’ve been approached by chicks. People say that i glow! Social skills +10! I found love for life and MYSELF! I feel like a King👑
60 more days until i can earn a 👑. Still fucking proud.
To my friends: Y’all are addicted to p0rn, you do NOT get prostate cancer from 3 months of nofap. It only makes sense to you ’cause you’re addicted to p0rn.
To my friends: I did not call you a pedo. Just pointing out that you can never know how old (or abused) the girl you’re tugging to is.
Good-bye p0rn. You do not make sense in my or my friends life.
See yah never p0rn✌🏽
Just want to say how fucking proud i am of this community b4 i start. You made me reach 20 days of hardmode! Fight the good fight!
My (23M) story of healing starts off with me being an refugee from Afghanistan, i came to Norway 🇧🇻 with my family when i was 5. As some might argue, i was a little traumatised. I was knee deep in /b and just degenerate shit by the time i was 14. I surrounded myself with death and pron to try to understand my traumatic experiences. Little did i know that it would just add to the pain. I remember that i would laugh at the most inappropriate times, just because i was so desensitised. I just had pain, and i really did not know what to do with it.
By the time i was 16-17 i was so fed up. So i decided to quit porn. And i did for 3 whole months! I got confident and girls started to make out with me at parties, just many females around me. I weighed 135 kg when i was 17, so i started Keto and IF because of the girls, and lost 36 kg in 3 years. Life was amazing! Girls loved me, i had my fun! But all good things come to an end.
At one of the usual house parties, i was making out with this girl “M” from my English class. A real qt3.14. But me being a gentleman realised that she was too drunk, so i told her that we can have a movie night the next day. And we fkn did! I was exited! Mb my first GF ever!
I come to the house and we make out a little, put on a movie. Were like fooling around and i try to make my move, slipping my hand down her pants. But she stops me. Cold feet i thought, but its fine. We finish the movie, i gave her a smooch and i go home. We’re both virgins at this time.
Next day i get a breakup message. Saying were not a good match for each other. And i didnt talk to her after that.
All off a sudden i heard rumours that i had raped her. Those words still haunt me. I tried talking to her, but she refused. I told my mom everything. And she said it was not even close to rape. And i knew that to be true, but after 4 years, i felt like a fucking rapist. I stopped hooking up. Didn’t even kiss a girl for 4 years after. I felt DISGUSTING. Me and M talked 4 years after. And she said she was just “confused” and confirmed that i did NOT rape her. (Btw she never apologised, god knows what fucked her up in the past.)
I did loose my virginity the next week. But as we all know, the damage was already done. My sexuality was gone. I still felt disgusting. Just fucking disgusting. And it spiraled. I did manage to find a now EX-GF when i was 22, she saved me in many ways! But most importantly, she proved to me that i could be loved. And most importantly, that i deserve love.
So now we reach the presence. I realised that i need to find love for myself. And respect my body. Pron is not safe, will never be. Especially when you are trying to heal your sexuality. I just trigger my past traumatic experiences with pron, and now is where it stops.
You don’t need porn, you dont need to PMO, i have many points in my life lost everything, PMO was not there to help me. I helped me! And i can do it again!
NOFAP will never be anything else than healing. Love yourself and love will come to you!
Thank you for your time Warriors!
TL;DR:
Fake rape accusations ruined my sexuality. And I’ve been on a mission to regain my sexuality, self love and respect for my body and mind.
Side note: Therapy is really recommended, it will help you realise your patterns so you can break the vicious circle!
LINK – I AM GLOWING
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