I’ll mention another benefit: stronger libido. My sexual energy isn’t out of control like it used to be. Now I can control it and when it does come into play, it’s typically with a beautiful woman in the vicinity.
This was not my first attempt. Probably my 6th. I had one wet dream during the period. During other attempts I had more wet dreams so that’s anamolous. I think because now Ive been going out with more women than I ever have been. It relieves the tension I suppose.I used to watch some form of hardcore porn once (sometimes twice) a day since I was about 14 (I’m 23 now). My main goal has been to escape addiction. Your own happiness shouldn’t derive itself from women or their approval. I could go the rest of my life on my own for all I care. All I know is, I’m more free than I was before.
I feel like I’ve come a long way. Abstaining from hardcore porn is now much much easier than it was a few months ago. I don’t have the same feelings towards women as I did before. I’m not desperate for their approval and I don’t view them as sex objects like I did in the past. I recently was seeing a girl but then I realized that I don’t really feel as much of an attraction towards her as I had imagined. I decided to be honest with her and tell her that it would be best that we’re friends. I’ve already done this with a few girls and women. I’m just not deceiving myself as I did before. It feels a lot more natural. I feel more in tune with my surroundings. Not afraid to interact with people or look them in the eyes. This feels so much better in every way and I don’t plan on going back to that pathetic video shit.
LINK – 90 day feelings and thoughts
by GunsnOil
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