This is it. This is what I have been working for. This is what I wanted all along. This is what has made me fall in love with life all over again.
It seems like all my perseverance and setting my beliefs straight about life has finally paid off. I haven’t felt this fresh and happy in ages. Probably this is the happiest time of my life. This is the happiest moment of my life. I am clear, energized, enthusiastic about everything. I am seeing things clearly. I am confident in my abilities and decisions and not a people pleaser anymore. I know what I want and what I am going to do to attain it. I know how to approach things. It seems I know everything, and everything about anything.
I reached a 22 day streak in April where I was beginning to feel the good effects that changing your life can bring. But then I relapsed. The next month was hell, a lot of 4 day and 2 day streaks. But then today on day 15 I feel new. I feel better than the 22 day streak I had. I realized that relapsing and then starting back from scratch ( I binged too, and that made it a lot worse to jump right back in ), and controlling even stronger urges has made this streak rewarding and given me more motivation and belief in myself than anything else I have ever tried. NoFap coming into my life is the best thing to ever happen to me and I am grateful for that.
For the past few weeks I have been working on myself. I am reading self help books, I read the slight edge and am following Jeff Olson’s ‘ten pages a day’ principle. I am working on my body language and my voice. I am working on my programming skills, music skills, working out and getting in shape, and I am meditating an hour every day. Everything has made so much of difference in my life. I am clearer in the head, I am full of energy, ready to jump everywhere. I am also very positive and my humility has increased. I feel happy at other people’s accomplishments and not jealous like I used to before.
I am not thinking about sex anymore. I am thinking about women but in a different way, I am appreciating their beauty and their personalities ( no more mind porn films ), I love talking and interacting with them, and they seem to like me more now as I am no longer a pervert like I used to be.
Overall, life is much better this way. And NoFap was only an eye opener and nothing else. It was a catalyst for me to step into the right mind and bring about changes that were essential to bring my life in control and upward momentum. I am happy right now, and I couldn’t be less grateful for this wonderful community who has supported me at every step.
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by hackletom
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