So i was away at T in the Park (music festival in Scotland) and i had a great time but i saw, heard and done so much that has actually really kicked me into gear for taking NoFap seriously.
For the Done: I got off with a girl this weekend for the first time in my life and am really happy about that. I’ve been trying to take NoFap seriously and despite the relapses my confidence is going up. The girl was really attractive but for the life of me i couldn’t get erect, i started panicking in my head in case she wanted to do anything more because i didn’t want to be that guy going in to a sexual encounter and not getting remotely turned on because my mind was so warped by porn. Nothing more happened that just kissing but it’s made me want to take this far more seriously.
For the Heard: My friends brought up quite a lot this weekend how they couldn’t wait to get home and masturbate, some of them having girl friends, others who had had sex the night before with some random girls they met there. Before i found NoFap i would have been in the exact same mind set but now i just couldn’t help thinking that was so weird and disgusting and really made me not want to do it anymore. I said to one of them “You just had sex last night, how do you need to wank” and his reply was “the internet has a better selection of women.” So yeah, i don’t want to be this guy who thinks some women on a screen is better than a women in real life.
For the Seen: I saw someone being taken away in a body bag, he was found in one of the toilets after he OD’d on pills. It was a really sad thing to see. It made me think about my own mortality and what I’ve really accomplished in life. Not much. I’ve spent most of my teenage years behind a computer looking a videos and pictures of sex. Now i’m not doing that anymore. I’m going to better my self, i’m going to work out more, i’m going to practice my music more, i’m going to be more social and more importantly i’m going to be a person i’m proud to be.
Cheers for reading my block of text.
LINK – T in the Park actually opened my eyes to how much porn and masturbation affect me and others.