THE START: I started PMOing about 7-8 years ago when i was only 13/14 years old.
WHEN I REALIZED I WAS ADDICTED: about 2-3 years ago based on following observations>> —could not sleep without fapping —immoral sexual desires started to creep in my mind —i started fantasizing about every girl i see and had to see cleavage in public desperately —pmo was consuming a lot of my time —back pain, fatigue, brain fog,lack of motivation —it only took a min or so to cum (maybe premature ejaculation) — my dick shape started changing…i was horrified when i realized it turned completely to the left when erect —academic decline (i mean some serious decline) —repeated failed attempts to overcome nofap
WHAT ABSTAINING HAS DONE FOR ME(changes during my longest streaks): —energy just skyrocketed —motivated,focused —stopped looking at cleavage in public and started treating women normally —dick became more muscular —when i relapsed after long streaks it took me 10-15 mins to cum which is vastly more than 1-2 mins when i regularly masturbate…and this continues for 3,4 times after i relapse —overall happiness
MY TRIGGERS: —YOUTUBE videos —facebook girls(friends) —public cleavage —movies (sexy scenes) —anything that even minutely shows some cleavage —fantasizing about my own girlfriend (dnt be surprised i have one,fantasizing about intimate times spent with her)
HOW I FIGHT THE BATTLE? —cutting off the internet use as much as possible —motivating myself —doing daily tasks at any cost —exercising —delaying urges for 10 minutes —saying no to my brain
HOW I LOSE SOME BATTLES/RELAPSE? — one more fap — one more day of enjoyment — tomorrowism — not doing daily tasks during abstinence period — constantly connecting everything to sex — giving up to urges far too easily — inability to stay away from internet
WHAT I LEARNED? — pmo is certainly not worth it……….and its hard to overcome it
HAVE I WON MY WAR WITH PMO?? — no….i am constantly fighting my urges and to be brutally honest i have failed like a 10000 times…
BUT WILL I GIVE UP?? — no chance in hell PMO IS MY BIGGEST OBSTACLE IN LIFE….IF I CANT OVERCOME IT, MY DREAMS AND HOPES WILL GO UNREALIZED…..A REAL MAN IS NOT THE ONE WHO HAS NEVER LOST A WAR….HE IS THE ONE WHO EVEN AFTER LOSING KEEPS COMING BACK FOR MORE….IT IS NOT OVER UNTIL I WIN
LINK – A COMPLETE GUIDE TO NOFAP (based on my experiences alone)
by monkgenius
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