Man the feeling was amazing. It was like I was my own person really. I looked at myself in the mirror and something clicked in me where I could just think freely.
I shared that I had an addiction to some relatives and family members and they were proud of me for [sharing].
The first thing was eye contact, I was obsessed with this and kept looking at people like a mini-game and made them look away. It was funny to me somehow. Of course, I don’t stare too long unless the person looking directly at me is not looking away and also gives a vibe that he/she is interested.
I was obsessed with the benefits which now I learned not to focus on because it takes out the reason and essence why one wants to quit porn altogether.
My body language improved and I can move like I do not give a single f, but that is also not true just because I was insecure about how skinny I was.
Another thing I noticed was how open I am to life. Everything was satisfying to me: nature, the people, and the feelings I feel when I speak to a person. Little things make me happy, and I am grateful for what I’ve got.
Speaking to the whole class [was] extremely easy. It was like I could make a conversation when looking at the class. I revealed my personality I did not know I had.
Forget counting days
But being too obsessed with benefits and [counting] days I got ahead of myself. And when I was looking at the days my brain tricked me into thinking that I had succeeded so why not just peek for a little bit?
Now, I’m starting again and I feel like now I could beat this and reach countless days #dontcountdays unless you have a record from where you started. But just check from time to time. Not like every day you pull off a day in the calendar and say “I am on day X”.
What is more important to you? Days or your present self being changed just because you took action? Think about it.
Quitting porn really is something. It does something to the brain as it transforms you into a different person. Added with semen retention, it brings out masculinity and strength overall. Good luck guys.
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