I never thought I would ever be able to go 90 days without at least Ming or watching porn subs but IVE DONE IT!!!!!!! 90 days ago I had been PMOing heavily every single day (several times a day) since my last relapse over a year previous. I came back on here after receiving an email, I joined the Reddit war which really gave me a good start to this 90 day challenge.
This has been a life long struggle for me, as a very young lad I discovered MOing (although the O was dry I was so young) I never stopped and it got worse and worse and worse until the Internet came along and guess what…… It destroyed my life even more. Like many others here I spent whole days (make that several days in a row) PMOing. This had ruled my whole life, caused me to become socially withdrawn, withdrawn from every body around me without any connections that should have been there. The list would probably be endless with the negative effects that this addiction brings. I mean everything in life was dulled and muted by turning to PMO.
No longer! I have tried before many many many times but I would relapse so many many many times I’ve lost count, and really at my last relapse …… I gave up trying to quit PMO.
So I met a girl some time ago, this was when I had some success at being ‘sober’ from PMO and now we are due to marry in two weeks.
Clearly getting married is even more reason and gave me more motivation to kit this addiction. So 90 days ago I started from PMOing several times a day to going COLD TURKEY hard mode.
- No porn
- No porn subs
- No masturbating
- No orgasming
And I realised along the way that I had to try extremely hard to keep my mind off fantasizing or thinking anything sexual. It’s the brain that needs rewiring and if I were to keep feeding the brain its dopamine hit by fantasizing I would be undoing what I was trying to achieve. I believe this to be the biggest reason why my reboot has been extremely successful – keeping the mind clean as much as possible. This was not easy by any means and I struggled and at times I don’t know how I managed not to PMO.
My mood did go up and down a little, some days I felt like crap and just needed to PMO (somehow I got through it)
At times I felt like I missed P so much it was like mourning the death of someone. The worst moment was waking up thinking I had PMOed only to find I was dreaming, that really messed with me.
However I stuck with it this time and did not give in, after around 40 days things got much easier to resist. For me at least the urges were not nearly as bad as they had been and finally I felt in control. Seriously this is the first time in my life I’ve been in control of myself and it feels great!
I’m confident, able to face life and have great chats with people and really connect with them. Of course most importantly I feel so much closer to my GF.
So what now?
Well I’m clearly never wanting to PMO ever again. After marriage I will set my counter to one year.
Two weeks and I will be able to have a natural release with my wife. We will both be virgins on the night and we haven’t even touched each other sexually.
Of course my history with PMO may well give me some issues yet but one thing I sure can say is it will be so much better now I’ve made 90!!!!!!
Wish me luck! I will keep you guys updated. My head is held high knowing I’m going into my marriage fully rebooted.
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LINK – 90 days completed finally – now getting married in two weeks.
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