I started watching porn at the age of around 13 and starting masturbating to it nearly every night for 6 years. At first it wasn’t a problem because its a “normal” thing to do right…Lol wrong, i was an addict. I used to go to bed,watch porn,sleep,wake up, porn, school.This continued for about 6 years solid and majorly fucked me in the head.
The consequences were unbelievable… It’s true what people say that porn is a drug and my god it is a dangerous one at that. So let me first of all say finding “nofap” was a absolute god send.
5 Months ago i got myself a girlfriend who i absolutely love to pieces and will do absolutely anything for. So we got together and started dating now I knew for a fact i was attracted to her her body face everything was beautiful but…this is where porn kicks in, because of all the stuff i had been watching i wasn’t satisfied with any sexual activity we did. So…. i thought to myself “could i be gay” (HOCD) … lol…. This sounds insane and at this moment in time im laughing because not once in my life had i been attracted to men, I could never never see myself with a man (not being homophobic) i support it and each to there own but it definitely isn’t for me and this where mild depression settled in. I was thinking about this situation at least 2 months solid so i did everything i accepted i was gay but obviously the thoughts didn’t go away because it was irrational and bullshit (I had a lot of weird thoughts as well)
- My family didn’t love me, I didn’t love them
- I’m gonna be like this for the rest of my life
- I was going to be homeless
Loads of bullshit which didn’t make sense. Due to this all going inside of my head i was on the verge of suicidal because my brain just couldn’t handle what was going on. Till one day i stumbled across “HOCD And no fap” and well… this changed my life… I have only been doing it for a week but let me tell you something… I have never in my whole life felt like this… The benefits i have had from not fapping for a week are
- Clear head (no irrational thoughts)
- More energy, More focused, More aggressive (released in the gym)
- More emotionally bonded to my girlfriend
- Moods have gone up significantly
- A whole lot more confident
- More focus and better drive
- I seem to have better vision for some reason…
- I noticed this one a lot and even my girlfriend noticed this Deeper voice and more manly
- Better posture and seem to have put more muscle on, My shoulders seem to stand out more.
- Longer Lasting erections / Harder
- Respect my girlfriend better (this has been the main one)
So all i can say is thank you for allowing me to post on here this has truly changed my life and if anyone else is going through anything even though it maybe hard you can do it.
I haven’t watched porn in nearly two months but have had sexual contact with my girlfriend and it felt fucking amazing i wasn’t doing it for my own pleasure but because i felt the need to express my love for her (sounds cringey but fuck it) if you feel the need to relapse just remember how good you’re feeling now and how far you’ve come DONT GIVE IN!!! WE CAN ALL DO THIS!!
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