I had a bit of a miracle last night. Since being PMO free that last couple of weeks, I have started feeling more attracted to my wife, and she to me, and even though I was exhausted last night, I was able to perform and we had sex. It was the first time in i don’t know how many years I was able to maintain an erection without Viagra.
It’s definitely clear to me I have had PIED for many years and didn’t know it. I’m so grateful for this experience last night. I’m 48 – when I was in my early 20s, I now realize I struggled with PIED – it was really horrible and lonely and I never was able to talk to anyone about it.
This morning I am battling that chaser effect I’ve read about. In the past, I would MO the next morning after having sex, and eventually this would lead to a pattern of PMO. I think it’s what fucked up my streak the last time. So I’m being extra aware of this and posting here instead of going it alone. Just posting here helps a lot.
One question I have. During sex, I tried to stay focused on her and not go to where my mind usually took me in the past. In the past, I always had to fantasize about my various fetishes in order to stay hard and get off. But last night I had a hard time – there were times my mind wandered into that fantasy land. I don’t want it to. I want to be focused on her/with her/not in some unreal fantasy, but I suppose that my brain has many years of “re-wiring” to accomplish. I would love to hear of any experiences others have about this.
Thanks for being here people.
LINK – Sex with wife – will I always fantasize during sex?
by Fisherking47
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