It’s my time to write this story. Although I am not 100% cured yet, but I am definitely happy and feel good and see this reality as it really is.
I am 27 years old, addicted to porn at the age of 12-13 years. This addiction gradually captured me that I was used to living in it, anxiety and depression and a small lifeless penis were my norm. Severe social anxiety. And only when I tried to have sex at the age of 23, I realized that something was wrong with me. He didn’t get up, his head was full of thoughts and fantasies from the scenes. At that moment I was destroyed. After that, a girl left me after 3 months. I was lying and crying and didn’t know what to do. I got on the Internet and read about porn addiction.
Since that moment, July 2019 (I was 23 years old) I stopped watching porn. But he continued to masturbate and wait for everything to recover. In total depression, anxiety, social anxiety and a flat line, I spent all three years until 2022. I did a 3-month hard regime, then I didn’t see the benefits, again I masturbated without porn. Then I did 6 a monthly hard regime, but almost 0 changes. Very little. And only a year ago, in February 2022, I started a hard regime that changed me a lot. After about half a year, I began to feel life below the belt, as the penis slowly comes to life and becomes big. Yes, I have completely given up alcohol since 2019 too.
At the moment, although I have small flat lines, they are rare and weak. I have a constant morning erection for 3 months and a great mood. The girls seem fantastically beautiful. Although sometimes the emissions put me in a little stupor, but it passes quickly. This is a great victory for me, a person, if not the biggest, then one of the most difficult cases. I couldn’t even get an erection on porn. And for many years he masturbated with a sluggish penis. I thought I was incurable. Because in the first 3 years, I saw a little progress. But the hard regime changed everything. For 3-4 years I lay and cried and thought about suicide. But this forum and books helped me to see the light at the end of the tunnel and self-belief. So that you understand to what degree I was dependent, I could not go further to the store and ask something at the bus stop. Severe depression and social anxiety paralyzed me. Panic attacks. Who would have thought that porn addiction is to blame for everything?
Now I easily flirt with girls, I feel energy, attention, how they look at me and get a lot of compliments. My attitude in the family is improving, I used to sit and be silent all the time because I was just depressed and anxious, I couldn’t say a single sentence. But I walked slowly and confidently step by step and now I see the brightest and best changes. My dick has become big and sensitive.
Guys, believe in rebooting and never watch porn. Good luck to everyone! Write! I will answer all the questions.
I’m Russian, so I used a translator, sorry.
I didn’t know this life without addiction. I’ve always been anxious, depressed. And even such a brain recovers, slowly and surely. I already thought that I would have to wait 10 years or even all eternity … I lay and cried without energy, without strength, without friends, without a girlfriend … just emptiness and a little hope…
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