SUCCESS – There it is, successful vanilla sex twice with a condom at all times. Went to see an escort and got hard once things started getting hot. I got oral with a condom and i was hard before the condom went on from foreplay which was a great sign, I then got her on top and she road my cock and I cum insider her within 2 minutes and it was great. So great I went back the next day to try again and success again and this time I didn’t cum so fast maybe 5 or 6 minutes and I did her doggy-style as well this time and then proceeded to cum inside her again.
How did I get here? I’d say the real start happened when I made it 90 days and proved to myself I could do it. With this came confidence and gave my body and mind a much needed break. I went and got a blowjob from an escort that specializes in it, which really helped bring some sensitivity to my dick. Even with PIED it’s pretty hard to not get hard when the bloods being sucked into your penis. I found this a good way to start rewiring and getting comfortable with becoming sexual with woman.
Visited a few more escorts doing the same. Then relapsed and got back on the horse, visited a few massage parlors getting used to skin on skin contact and becoming more comfortable with the opposite sex and not worrying about getting hard and just enjoying it. Was able to cum from hand jobs at the end but had difficulty sometimes. Fell off the horse a few more times but I never binged.
I went out to clubs with friends even if i was only on a 1 day streak and pushed through my nervousness and kept my composure and flirted with woman at any chance I got and I tell you something I was fucking scared but once I got going I loved the rush I got from it. At my job I spend a lot of time on the road in a van and oogle every chick I see. I also get to interact with about 20 random customers a day and some of these are hot woman. Anyway I visited another escort and went for sex but lost my erection within 30 seconds and felt embarrassed as can be. Ended up coming from a blowjob, 2 days later I thought fuck it and tried again with a different escort and before know it she bouncing on top of me with her tits jiggling in my face while i’m cumming inside her thinking did that just happen.
Woke up the next day with MW and was super horny all day at work getting erections thinking about last night, so i decided to go back again and same thing except i lasted a bit longer and banged her pretty good this time. Woke up next day with no MW and no real libido and thats how it been the last 2 days since. I’m not out of the woods yet by a few miles but i can see light.
I’m probably 1 of the worst cases on this site, it got to the point where I could no longer even get hard to porn. Could only jack off to shemale porn and weird fetish porn would spend hours at a time watching it also with no life.
HERE’S A FACT, if I can recover you 100% can and nothing you say will change my mind. I’ve proved it!!!!!!
IT’S ALL ABOUT REWIRING, NOT HOW MANY DAYS YOU’VE GONE. Anything longer than 90 days seems like a waste of time. That’s not to say you should jack off after 90 days but after 90 days you should be approaching woman or doing something.
I waited for 90 days then went straight out and got a blowjob to get things rolling. After cumming a dozen times with real woman I guess my brain started associating real woman with sexual pleasure and my dick started responding more and more. The 90 day break is very important; otherwise it’s like trying to start a fire in the pouring rain. The 90 days allows the sky to clear and brighten, and then you have to start the fire which doesn’t just happen on its own you have to work for it and probably look like a fool at times. But if you’re not starting the fire and the skies cleared your sitting in the sun waiting for the fire to start itself, which isn’t going happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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BY – time2change2016
INITIAL POST –
Deleted a lot of the posts i had already made and starting again gonna keep it simple. Started on internet porn aged 10 maybe younger, dived straight into the deep end. Hardcore porn since aged 10
I’m a virgin but i’ve had oral twice and handjobs before my PIED, failed attempt at sex aged 15 with my dick being bent went she was on top we went at it for like 5 mins but i still feel like a virgin. Failed attempt at 16 too, A girl i was with just me and her on a sofa and i couldn’t get a hard erection, had to try a fantasize about porn while next to her and could only achieve a weak boner that would disappear as soon as i stopped. I never made my move because my addicted brain was not interested.
Shortly after this incident, my self esteem dropped miles and i fell into depression and my addiction got worse. I’m 22 and i’m a porn addict with PIED whose been trying to quit since 2011 Got serious about quitting after hitting rock bottom early 2016, even told my Mum I’ve had PIED since i was 16. Best streak 83 days
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