I’m 50 years old and have always had a pretty strong sex drive. I discovered porn when I was about 14 but fortunately the internet didn’t exist in the form it does today. I got fast internet when I was about 32 and I’ve been binging on porn ever since.
I’m in a relationship with wonderful woman who I find very attractive. I noticed I was taking forever to cum and even gave up trying once I knew my girlfriend had cum. About a year ago PIED hit me! No erection with my girlfriend. I was still watching porn and masturbating but the real thing was ‘boring’. I immediately connected this to porn use and found this site.
I quit FAP at the beginning of the year and after 38 days I was ‘cured’. Strong erections, good sex, fantastic sensations and having an orgasm before my heart gave out. I was very pleased to have ‘rebooted’ so quickly. I came to the conclusion that the videos I had been watching were the problem. Like many people on here report, my tastes changed and I was watching stuff which no longer matched my sexual orientation. So I decided that I was done with ‘tube sites’ and watching porn videos. However, I concluded that some soft-core images wouldn’t hurt so I started checking out some nude pictures, women on their own and no sex or penetration. I also decided I wouldn’t masturbate while viewing them. BIG MISTAKE!
Although I haven’t watched a porn video for about a year now my interest in soft-core nudes escalated to erotic comics. This then moved onto fetish comics (still no videos). I came to my senses about a month ago mid-way through masturbating to still fetish images. I was edging and I was searching for the perfect still image to finish to. In addition to this, I haven’t been able to get hard enough to have sex with my girlfriend for 2 months. I’m flat-lining again and this time it feels terrible. It feels like death inside my shorts. I’m 31 days into my 2nd reboot and this feels much more serious than the previous one. I had some hints that I was recovering at this stage last time. This time I feel nothing. I’m not freaking out because if things improved last time I’m sure they will this time. I’m just very angry with myself because the sex I had with my girlfriend when I had ‘cured’ myself was amazing and now I’m having to restart again.
I know everybody is different and every reboot will differ but here are some of my thoughts with respect to my own experience. Watching fast streaming porn videos isn’t the only problem. It’s all porn. I haven’t watched a porn video for about a year but just looking at soft images has led to hard images which led to masturbating to these images. Now I find myself back to square one (in fact it feels worse than square one). No erections. No morning wood. No desire to make love to my girlfriend but lots of cravings to look at porn!
So please, DO NOT think you can sneak a little porn in just to kill a bit of time (regardless of the genre or strength). You need to really shut down the neural paths associated with porn and reward. When you start to feel some life returning to your loins, DO NOT test it out with a little PMO session. I’m not masturbating during my current flat-line because I just can’t get hard. I didn’t masturbate during my previous flat-line. Try not to panic. I’m pretty good at keeping it together when I’m stressed but even I’ve been having some irrational thoughts because it really does feel like my dick is dead. Good luck to everyone trying to get their lives back on track. I would never have believed watching porn could have had such a profound effect on my ability to have sex but thanks to Gary and the other people posting on here we know what it can do and how we can reverse its effects.
LINK – I thought it would be safe to look at porn after a reboot!
by mousemat
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