300 days porn-free: Significantly reduced anxiety & depression, increased focus

So I’ve gone 300 days now without porn use, a couple months of not fapping (separated by one month of fapping thrice).

  • Started working a job where I interact with people all day long after 7 years of unemployment (due to depression and social anxiety).
  • Significantly reduced anxiety and depression, although still there (and probably always will be to some extent) it’s manageable to the point where it doesn’t seem to hinder my day-to-day.
  • Increased ability to focus, can read books again whereas I couldn’t during times with heavy porn use, massively increased ability to plan ahead (weeks compared to two days max during porn use).
  • Better diet, this might stem from increased focus.
  • Huge gym gains. Was too self centered and anxious before, now I squat, bench and deadlift without giving any fucks.

Now, things might not stay this way forever, I might hit a bad spot in life and end up losing against myself for a while again, but being on top for this long now it doesn’t seem likely.

If anyone wonders about anything related to the overall recovery process, although it’s a very personal experience and no one is alike, I can probably provide a few insights.

THREAD – My 300 day summary.

 by proqu


 

UPDATE

Never been better, overcoming this addiction has helped me work much harder on my anxiety as well as my physical well-being. I’ve gone from socially anxious, unemployed bedroom-dweller to working full time and being in a healthy relationship with another human being that I love. Granted, it might not be caused by quitting my porn habit all on it’s own. Major changes to my diet+continuous exercise (started with heavy cardio sessions, now it’s mostly lifting) as well as just getting sick of where I was and wanting to change things helped immensely. I feel restored, porn has no place in my mind anymore :). It definitely takes a while, but it’s completely possible.