I had my first wet dream the other day (day 37) of no PMO. It’s insane the amount you cum, but it makes sense if it’s all building up in there. I took it as a sign that I’m rebooting. I won’t count it as an orgasm though as I had no control over it. I’m not even sure what effects it had on me if any; I was pretty awesome that day although I did get irritated that night. After the wet dream(although I don’t know if I had a dream to go with it),my boner was one of the fullest I’ve ever experienced; I could have hung weights on it.
One thing I noticed about abstaining is that you’re going to the loo less and less. Orgasm triggers urination. After the wet dream, I was going for a piss all throughout the day which just confirms what I already believed and although going to the toilet less often in itself is not a big improvement of any kind, I’m not needing to go during the night which means I can get to sleep better. On another note, I had a full on erection for the best part of half an hour the other day. I didn’t even know that was possible!
It’s amazing what you learn doing this. I think I now fully understand the saying that ‘knowledge is power.’ Once you know how something works and how it affects you, it’s much easier to muster the will power to make a change if you so wish. But we all knew that, didn’t we?
Something that had annoyed me for the past few years was how irritable I had become. The only advice I could find was along the lines of “just don’t let it bother you”, but that’s a lot easier said than done. Now I’m finding I can just shake most things off that would have bothered me before, like I used to be able to do.
Never in a million years would I have related the problem to porn. Not saying I never get irritated anymore, but now I don’t hold a grudge on that person. I can stand up for myself more, which I could always do in my younger days, although I’m still young. I also feel more empowered in arguments and stuff, like I’m the one in control. This is an improvement I really value in myself. Also, feeling more confident and projecting that to others means that people are less likely to try to annoy you and rather just be more friendly.
I also like having all this sexual energy flowing in my body rather than constantly having to be released. My mind is learning that a having a boner doesn’t equal having a wank and it’s learning to enjoy it. It’s like I’m a completely different sexual being. This has been very important to abstaining from masturbation I feel. Porn hasn’t really had a pull since the first few days either.
I read an analogy somewhere on here that said about how abstaining from PMO was like pulling a hair out of a plug and once you pull it out, you start to unplug all the others. This is exactly how I feel. I feel like this is just the start to a better more balanced life. There’s plenty more I’d like to say but I think I’ll save them for another blog.
-Now that I’ve reached the 40 day mark, my next goal shall be two months of no PMO.
BY ROWDY
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