Well, here I am at 84 days. I have been reading a lot of the posts in since my first posts and constantly reading how everyone is going in here.
I log into reddit every single day, 2-3 times a day, read the posts in our group to see how everyone is going. The successes and failures, the ups and downs. The different struggles, young and old are going through.
6 days out from 90 day stint, I reflect on my journey…where I came from and where I am now.
I used to fap to porn 2-3 times a day. I had ED. I couldn’t have sex without pills. It fucking sucked. Any stress I felt, I fapped.
I run my own business from home and I would hit the piss often in the arve, next day, fap, struggle..but still made a living. Had a shitty relationship was dead set….shithouse.
I knew shit had to change.
I accidently discovered nofap, and I was amazed at the problem I didn’t know I had, but it all made sense.
For me, this was not an option. This had to happen. Negative thoughts, bad shit going on in the head, poor lifestyle, too much piss, shit food, fucked relationship, porn.
Now….I have not watched any porn whatsoever, I have not masturbated once. I ended this stupid crazy, dysfunctional, wrong relationship.
I have trained again like I haven’t in years. Hard gym work, lots of cold showers, good food. I am feeling fucking fantastic.
I put myself out there, confident as shit, feeling on top of the world, feeling fit and hard.
My business has now gone bunta, my brain space is outa control. I have more work and money than I have had in years.
I have met the woman of my dreams. I kid you not, she is a goddess. She is one of the most beautiful women I have met..inside and out…and we have both fallen head over heals in love with each other.
I told her early in the relationship what I was doing. I spoke with her about nofap, reddit and what I am doing….and she was absolutely blown away. I confessed to her about my addiction, I had to change and how I wanted to be a better man.
I told her I no longer want to objectify women and want to pour all my energy and feelings to someone and make a woman feel the most important thing on planet earth. And I am making her feel like it.
I don’t think I have been happier in my life.
Nofap is just the beginning. It is the start. Stopping wanking to porn and draining my life force made me channel my energy into the real me. The man I am supposed to be.
Confident, outgoing and charismatic.
This community is one of the amazing things on the internet. Spread the word my friends. Become who you are supposed to be.
Real men, leaders, men who treat their women with respect, love and adoration…not objects and sluts.
For my fellow fapstronaughts, young and old who are faltering, falling short of the mark. Your mind is your last bastion. Your mind is what is making the decisions, not your cock.
Learn how to control that fucker. Learn how the brain works, learn the way the brain works to triggers. Once you know your brain is working to a trigger..you can say to your self…”I see what you are doing there brain…but you aren’t going to make me do that bad shit”…
Self awareness my friends….become aware.
6 days to go to 90…..the rest of my life nofap.
EDIT: I had a “HARAJUKU” moment. Which basically means, something had to change. Google it.
LINK – 90 Days and Closing
Hi mate. I’m 44. My problems began in my marriage. Lot’s of porn, probably stopped giving her the attention she needed and she left me. I have been through a huge journey of self discovery along the way.
But I still had problems with the sex. ED especially. Now, I have no more ED
INITIAL POST – Well….I’m On My Way
I accidentally discovered nofap a few days ago. I don’t know how, but a lot of things have been happening in my life, sort of stuff that is popping up because I am ready for change. I didn’t know what this nofap thing was all about, then started watching the ted video and a few other things and then, a huge lightbulb went on in my head.
WHOLLY SHIT!!!!! I have been less than myself for frigging years. This fapping to porn has been robbing me of who I am, and upon reflection, I can see the effect is has been having on me. I have been way less social, I don’t worry about going out and meeting people anymore. I have started thinking woman have been a pain in the arse, (had a terrible relationship, awesome sex, crazy in the head) so I just fap now. I have fapped pretty well every day, or every second day to porn, sometimes multiple times a day for years. It has sort of been like a routine for me. I think, I haven’t fapped today, I better get one away. Then 30 minutes later, I’ll go, that was good, now again. All to porn.
I compare women’s looks to those in porn and in turn, ignore other woman around me. The times I have had sex with women, I have been having trouble getting erections, which is sort of embarrassing, so now I just stay at home and fap. I never have any problems doing that, so as a result, I don’t even worry about going out or meeting women anymore or I just can’t be bothered.
I have become so much more reclusive as a result. My internal drive has been waning, my focus has been erratic, all over the shop. And you know the funny thing, there have been a few times where I haven’t fapped for 5-7 days, (for whatever reason) unintentionally, and found I actually have been feeling better.
I have been drinking more than I should, because I don’t really give a fuck, Ill just stay at home, have a few beers, so when I have a few beers, I also have a few smokes. Then I’m ratshit for a few days, can’t exercise, feel like shit, pull up some porn to make myself feel better, 3-4 times and then the whole thing repeats itself.
Upon reflection, fapping has been draining me. Fuck, it’s like a huge mindshift.
I am so determined to change this. This is like discovering the formula to make a million dollars in the stockmarket. I didn’t know this information existed, this forum existed or this was even a problem.
I am now a fapstronaught. I have just got my badge, it says one day, but in reality, it is my day 3. But I don’t care. This is my new life, the new me.
I will now not objectify women. I will now respect them.
And this whole new approach and lifestyle will bring out the real me, the one who has been trapped inside me, for years, bursting to come out.
I have been reading the posts on here for the last few days, reading about everyone’s success’s and struggles. I will now join in on these conversations, so we can all help each other on this journey.
I am a bit older than the average age of people in here, and all I can say is, I am so jealous of you guys. I wish I knew this information years ago. The potential I have wasted. But, I have now started.
It is a new beginning. And away we gooooooo……..
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