Porn and masturbation have had substantial negative effects on my ability to socialize, and I am starting to realize why.
- Decreased Dopamine Sensitivity– I have to force a smile, simply talking to people isn’t enough to make me happy.
- Lowered Self Esteem– I feel like a loser because I masturbate to porn.
- Nothing to Talk About– I’m not about to tell you I spent have my day searching for porn on the computer and masturbating.
- Sounding Dumb– I’m so preoccupied with porn that I really can’t focus on anything else.
- Staying In– I’d rather stay home and watch porn than get out and socialize. Especially when I know going out would trigger anxiety.
- Anxiety– I don’t know why I would get this, all I know is it goes away or at least lessens significantly when I don’t watch porn and comes back when I do. It hits when I am alone a public place and I am really tense for no reason. My theory is that subconciously I am always trying to make sure no one is watching me so I can watch porn.
Happily, all of these problems are disappearing from my life as I continue my journey away from porn. It feels like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders and I can be the person I want to be now. Good luck to you all and thank you for your support!
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