I’m 29 and I never thought about young girls in a sexual way, ever in my entire adult life. I’ve always been attracted to tits, ass and a womanly figure, and I didn’t understand how a pedophile could possibly be attracted to children.
A few months ago I started exploring Youtube videos of under-18, but still pubescent girls sexy dancing, strip teasing etc., never pornographic, but fap material nonetheless. This is totally disgusting behavior, but not unnatural in my opinion because girls are physically fully mature around 15-16, and though we might not admit it, men are sexually attracted to girls this age.
As you might imagine, there’s an entire Youtube subculture dedecated to sexy videos of young girls. Eventually, I was led from 15 year olds to 12, 10, 8 year old girls dancing in bikinis and shit like that. I was horrified at my behavior. I had never remotely thought of doing this kind of thing before in my 15+ years of fapping. Am I really THAT guy? The dispicable creep who faps to little girls, and eventually does god knows what else?
I knew there was something very wrong happening in my brain. This just wasn’t me.
It was around this time I discovered nofap. I realized what was happening was the dopamine-driven compulsion for novelty. My brain was burnt-out on fapping to adult women, the thrill and novelty of young girls was just what my dopamine addicted brain was after.
I can’t believe it had to get to that point, but that’s what it took to snap me into reality and realize the damage porn and masturbation was doing to my mind. I have abstained from PMO for 2 weeks now, and I never plan on going back. If you’re on the fence about nofap, take it from me, you are destroying yourself. You must stop before it’s too late.
LINK – Porn almost turned me into a pedophile
by mrdarkshine
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