I’ve been entirely free of porn and solo masturbation since the beginning of this year I haven’t had a single solo orgasm. That’s the longest I’ve gone since I was about 11 years old (currently 20). I have a very active sex life with my girlfriend, we usually go at it several times per day.
This morning for various reasons we were unable to do so but I was very horny so I thought I’ll just rub one out like the good ol’ days and see how it goes.
My very first observation was how incredibly fake porn is. While I was watching it regularly it seemed so normal but now that I haven’t watched for a while it was a totally different experience. The girls looked super fake with over the top makeup and the positions just looked unnatural and uncomfortable. Absolutely nothing like real sex. I built it up in my head that it would be like taking a drug after a tolerance break and it would feel great, but in reality I felt much less arousal than I used to when watching porn in the past.
Jerking off felt about as expected, it was good but the orgasm was very lame. I didn’t cum anywhere near as hard as I used to, it felt more like letting go of my horniness than actual pleasure. Obviously not even close to the orgasms I have during mutual masturbation or sex.
Overall it wasn’t the exhilarating experience I expected it to be and I think I’m happy to continue abstaining. Next time I’m in a situation where we can’t have sex I’ll just stick it out and wait.
As a residual effect I notice myself thinking about masturbating more and having a bit of trouble concentrating at work. I understand now why you guys call it a relapse, as masturbation hadn’t even crossed my mind for months before today. I’m hoping I have the mental fortitude to not fall back into my habit!
TL;DR – Don’t relapse folks, it’s never worth it!
LINK – My experience revisiting porn and masturbation after months of abstinence
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