I’m 22 years old and i first started to fap when i was 10 years under the shower because or boredom. When i was 12 years old my cousin who was also 12 years old showed me porn for the first time. When you’re 12 years old you can’t see the harm in it and i started to fap like an animal. I was attractive young boy and the girls on my school liked me. I got my first real kiss back when i was 12. I wasn’t aware that porn slowly was taking me down because i was still a young boy.
I got a girlfriends when i was 14 years old and lost my virginity at 15 to my girlfriend.
I never had trouble with getting hard but i watched so much porn that i just wanted to fuck another girl. So i broke up and the hunt began. Unfortunately i didn’t find a girl for 2 years. I didn’t know why because i used to get girls easily back then.
I was also getting into the more weird porn genre’s like BDSM and cuck. I got another girl at age 17 but we only had relationship for 4 months. In the beginning we had great sex but after a few weeks i wanted to see her getting fucked by another guy. There was no way i could tell her so i just broke up with her.
At this point i could not even watch normal porn anymore. It just didn’t do it for me. I kept fapping and fapping till i was just depressed as fuck. Again i found a girl and i was madly in love with her. Just like the previous girl the sex was great but after a while i wanted to see another man fuck her. When she found out by surfing on my phone’s browser she was angry and started to cheat on me. We broke up and my life was going down further and further. I was lucky to have some good friends but i didn’t want to tell them what was going on.
(From here it gets better) I always was a big music lover and i always wanted to be great guitar player. So i started to take some lessons and i really got into it.
I also learned about nofap. I would always laugh a bit when i read posts about it. Even though i was still fapping, making music would make me happier. I wanted to be a better person and i wanted to not be lonely.
So i decided to try this “nofap” thing. The first few days i had a rough time, but when the days moved on i would find it easier to fight the urges.
I finally see girls stare or giggle at me again. I feel like i have way more energy and i need less sleep. I started to date a girl again and feel disgust by the idea of her getting fucked by another man. I’m on day 60 now and i feel like i never want to watch porn and fap again.
My dear friends, i know its a messy and a weird story,(english is not my native language) but just like me you can pull yourself out of this misery. We only have limited time in life, so dont waste it on porn.
The journey is hard, but i know that if really want to stop with PMO you can do it. All it needs is some selfcontrol and dedication.
I hope this might help some of you.
LINK – 60 days PMO clean, my story
By Mrnighttrain
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