I’ve been masturbating since kindergarten and using porn since elementary school. As one would expect that left quite the consequences.
I decided to stop with porn usage when I realised I was reaching out to porn when I should’ve been reaching out to my boyfriend. Then I looked more into the consequences of my habits and decided I was done. That was on November 2nd this year, making me porn free for 44 days now! 🙂
What I found has helped me fight over the urge of looking up porn is viewing myself as someone who doesn’t ever consume it. I talked about quitting porn for good with others and that has only reinforced my view of myself, as now others viewed me the same way. Also understanding that by giving up porn, the quality of my life and relationships will be much better and that by continuing to use it I won’t be getting anything, one of the reasons being that it’s already been useless for a couple of years anyway (yes I got that desensitized).
Now I’m thinking about quitting masturbation as well, as due to being excessive with it and using porn, the end result is never as satisfying as it should be and instead leaves me tired and dissatisfied. So, wish me luck bois! 🙂 And good luck to everyone, we can do this!
Edit: Also wanted to mention that for now, things seem to be pretty much the same and I haven’t been noticing any improvement in desensitization. Lately, my mind has only been getting more perverted. Hopefully quitting masturbation as well will bring about better results. And yeah, I’m not expecting it to be quick or anything, as I did get quite deep in the hole.
Edit2: Another thing worthy of mentioning is that my goal is battling the side effects of this addiction and getting a healthier mind. I’ve been using masturbation as a coping mechanism, so that is another thing I will be working on. Someone commented that I won’t see much changes in my life due to being a female. However, getting over an addiction and battling the side effects is exactly that, no matter the gender.
Edit3: Some people pointed out I have 0 days on my counter. It’s because I’m starting no PMO today and only quit porn 44 days ago. I did not relapse.
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