It’s crazy to me how much porn changed us. Somehow, we all ended up as anti-social zombies. You really see the difference in your character if you don’t fap for a while. I only had one girlfriend in my life and that was after high school from 2015-2017. It was a super toxic relationship and that girl was literally a psycho. That girl was super insecure with herself and nothing but an anchor in my boat.
When I started studying 2017 in college there was not a single girl that I was interested in. Another year (2018) passed and we had new students. I was also failing all classes because I couldn’t get my shit together (porn addiction was over the roof). Somehow after I discovered nofap things went better. I still didn’t reach 90 days. My pr was 31 days. The crazy thing is since I’m repeating all the classes that I failed earlier we have super-hot girls in this new semester. I’m also committed to nofap.
I got some attraction here and there but one day in a class, I noticed a group of beautiful girls. They were 4 blondes and there was one black-haired girl. I said to myself this girl is ugly as hell; the blonde ones are the cute ones lol. Some weeks went by and I was so damn wrong. The black-haired girl is exactly my type and I’m absolutely in love with her and I have no sexual imagination at all with her! I have fucking butterflies in my stomach after several years! Damn!
Call me crazy or whatever but this damn feeling is super beautiful. I never had that feeling for such a long time and I shed some tears too. Another crazy thing happened on Friday. I was a bit earlier in class and after a couple of minutes, my crush came. I was in the front rows and she was three rows behind me. I stand up and went to her row lmao. There was only one downside I was too excited and couldn’t open my damn mouth and start talking to her.
I tried but I couldn’t and my heart was beating super-fast. Never ever experienced something like that. This week I will start talking to her since I’m also at 15 days. She also checked me out a couple of times and looked over to me (before Friday and on Friday too). We also had an interaction because she has the flu and was asking for hankies. I had one pack and gave it to her and she said ‘I will take two okay’ and I said to her you can have the whole pack. She was surprised and said thank you and my dumb ass friend interrupted us and she turned her back. Actually, it was my fault too because I should keep the conversation.
What’s the point in watching porn or watching some strangers having sex and fapping. Useless as fuck. I regret that I didn’t discover nofap much earlier in my life but I can’t change the past. I will focus on the future and keep improving. I’m a porn addict since 14 and my life was hell until I discovered nofap. The benefits are real but it’s hard. Once you figured your triggers and never let your guard down things getting much easier. A lot of hard workouts + cold showers are here the key to success.
I will also focus on studying much more because I have my finals in three weeks. For the first time in my life I know I can reach all my goals and achieve everything I wanted. I will update you guys in a week or so. Never give up and keep going!
LINK – I’m in love after three years
by Danone96
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