I would like to share, how I feel after 400 days honestly without any exaggeration like I woke up one day with 2 wings at my back and I have started to fly or anything like that. Some of the positive things that I have noticed/felt:
– Enjoying little Things:
I have noticed that I started to enjoy and feel happy from little things such as listening to music, deep talk with a good friend or even eating a good meal.
– Self-confidence / Inner security has increased:
I started not to care about what other people think of me and I have started to ignore fake friends and work colleagues, in the past I was afraid to ignore fake friends or work colleagues because I needed to be nice to everyone, but now I am secure enough to say I don’t want to be a part of a gossip group and I don’t want to gossip about anyone
– My Self-respect has increased
I have started to prioritize my well-being and respect myself. I have noticed a remarkable shift in my overall way of living after not allowing anyone to say something disrespectful to me.
– Self forgiveness
I forgive myself more often than before for all the mistakes that I have made in the past and when I do something wrong like forgetting something or being late, etc.. I started to say to myself “I am not perfect and I don’t have to be perfect” Before being sober, I used to criticize myself so hard and feel worse for tiny little mistakes that in most cases not a big deal
-My Emotions become more sensitive
I have started to cry when I watch a sad scene or an emotional scene in a movie
-New things / Risk
I started to love to try new things and to take more risks which made my life more fun
Conclusion
There are ups and downs in the recovery journey. There were some days that I felt shit and there were some days that I felt great so it is totally normal to feel both emotions.
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