I have already told a lot of time that I’m on and off nofap for a long time. Maybe 2-3 years now with my first attempt at nofap is probably 5-6 years old. I had some streaks over 60 days, never 90 days and most of my times I get 5-15 days.
I have changed my lifestyle a lot, found to Christianity (no this is not a religious post) and thought about life-values and life goals.
My lifestyle is pretty great at the moment and I guess Ill get a girlfriend in a few weeks but nothing there jet.
We talked a lot in this sub about how important it is to focus on building the new and not avoiding the old. Which is true. But I have also made an insane discovery:
The last time I wanted to fap to porn was like 15 days ago. I looked up a video (didn’t took long I found a nice one and it doesn’t need to be perfect, especially if you don’t watch that much porn). The video started and I fapped like 30 seconds and then I stopped. The lady was nice but I just didn’t felt attached to the hole thing. I finished my masturbation to my fantasy (to girls I have met). Today I had a really boring day and was on and off to try out porn again (hadn’t masturbated since then).
I made a post the few days ago about a beautiful girl I met dancing salsa. Today I found a porn video (funnily after searching 5 mins max) with a girl looking exactly like her.
I had a decision to made: Do I fap to the porn or do I turn back and stay on my streak? Well I decided to fap one last time to porn to make the 90 days at Christmas.
So I started the video and the girl was absolutely hot and lovely but I just couldn’t “get into” the video. My dick was hard and my brain was filled with dopamine but still it didn’t felt nice it was just … not what I want out of life.
I stopped masturbating and started writing this post. Why I tell you this? for when my days have come to an end, you shall be King.
A little joke. 😛 I tell you this because give yourself time. Don’t binge when you relapse. Count the days you fap to porn per year and try to get that number down. If you do this and start building a healthy lifestyle it doesn’t matter how much you fap, because naturally you will do it less and less because you start getting a REAL life.
and when more time comes you will drop the porn with no effort. Like me today. The second time I turned down porn although I would have allowed myself to watch some after a decent streak of nofap just because I have moved on.
LINK – https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/9i9ao8/i_cant_watch_porn_anymore/
By TheKorken
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