I WAS PORN ADDICT FOR 7 YEARS. I WAS. BUT I AM NOT ANYMORE. I was addicted on femdom porn, and i spent hours watching this and being ashamed why i even do that. I was addicted on femdom acts and i spent hours in urges and in fantasies about being dominated by women. I had erectile dysfunction and thinking about penetration didn’t even excite me. BUT NOW EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT.
I beat porn addiction, yeah.. Only with NOFAP and with keeping my mind strong now i feel the smell of victory. I blocked porn everywhere and i even forget that this shit exist.
I beat my fantasies… I don’t have urges or things like that, i don’t fantasize anymore about my fetish perversions and now it don’t ever back to terrorize my mind.
I got a girlfriend, i am already 5 months in relationship with her… She love me so much, and i love her… We have sex often and we both enjoy it so much, i am happy and serene like never before in my life. She makes me feel so happy. She is wonderful, and i know that our relationship is really special. Even her smell excite me, i am not machine, but she said that i’m really good in this stuff, and i don’t insist on femdom acts but we also have sex where i am dominant, even often.. And she likes it so much. Everytime when we have wild sex she say how good i am in this. It excite me so much, i don’t think about pornography at all.
I served in the army, for six months and during this time i lived in barracks and i was on duty so often so i did not think about PMO at all, i learn how to be disciplined, i learn to respect people and their work, i got a more self confidence and i feel more masculine, even if my girlfriend told me that i am already too masculine, and even (masculine and gentle at the same time, and this excite her so much). I started to respect hard work and got that only with this man can got his real power.
I’ve got a job, yeah… I live in Eastern Europe where finding job is a really hard, so many people from Eastern Europe go to Western Europe or USA to find a job, and work not for so much money. I’ve got a job very close to my house, with ok salary (for Eastern Europe) and i work in public sector now. I can’t say that i love so much my job but i definitely thinks that it’s totally ok and it keeps me busy that part of day (so i also can’t think about PM even if i want to).
I’m proud of myself for everything what i did for myself and others. I am good son, good brother, good friend good boyfriend, i was good soldier and i am good worker. I am good man, with big heart and cheerful character, many people told me this. And i know that it’s true. Even that someone think that it’s not true, i know it is.. I know myself better than anyone. And the most important thing is to have faith in yourself.
I got a self-confidence, after all of those adventures… I got that one of the most important things is also self-confidence… You know, subconscious mind is the thing that control our thoughts… But what not many people know is that WE CAN CONTROL THIS, by changing our subconscious mind. It’s so powerful, so we can’t play with this easily. I visited a psychotherapist and she told me that i should write on piece of paper positive things about myself. 10 positive things. Things in first person… Things like “I am potent man” or “I am loyal to myself”. I wrote this on piece of paper and read this 21 days, in the morning, during day, and before sleep. And you know what? Everything i wrote became truth! It’s simply, believe me, dear friends… I gave a command to my mind that this must be done.. And it’s like in army… I simply wanted this, and this became the truth… Now i am potent man. In every meaning. I am strong physically, sexually, mentally stable. I experienced a renaissance of myself. I do things like swimming, street workout, alpinism, cycling… I do sports and it makes me strong by mind and body. This is the triumph of the will. I am healthy guy, in healthy body, with healthy soul. No one can convince me otherwise.
I am happy and serene, i started to meditate sometimes, and i discover my inner self.. I’m not afraid of things i was, i don’t have any phobia anymore, i love life, and also animals (i’m vegetarian for many years), and i start to learn many things from them… They love with more purity, they feel with more purity…
I’m proud of this community and i’m really proud of all of you, Fapstronauts, this forum show me that change is possible, and that we should start from ourselves, from depth of our mind and soul. From where i started my personal revolution and now i am new man… New, better man. I will keep going this way and i will never forget what all you guys do for me. I am so thankful to everyone who gives me advices about this and about our struggle and i even got a good friend from this forum. Thank you everyone for being a positive part of my life. I will never meet any of you, but be blessed guys, every of you.
HOW I SUCCEED?
IT ALL STARTS WHEN I DECIDE THAT I WILL STOP WATCHING PORN.
I SUCCEED,
YOU CAN DO IT TOO!
NEVER GIVE UP, SISTERS AND BROTHERS!
BACKGROUND:
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/femdom-addiction-for-7-years-please-help.94640/
Yes, it was my story when i was helpless and when i was so weak to do anything to help myself. But then i discover this wonderful forum which give me hope… Hope to live. I was on the edge of suicide, i hated myself for everything what i did.
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