Dear nofappers,
I did it, I really did it and I’m so sure like never in my life.
It was all a coincidence, it’s unbelievable: I’m meditating for about a year (every day 30 minutes), still had problems with watching porn and all, despite porn blockers and all counter measures.
Now I came from a 10 day meditation course and want to share my experience with you guys. Before the course I was expecting to relax a bit during the course and to be able to relax better after the course.
BUT:The meditation course was the most hard working days I had in my life. You basically meditate around 8 h a day which is physically as well as mentally very challenging. Now I keep on meditating at least 2 h hours a day, to feel fully aware of my surroundings.
I learned a technique which connects my unconscious mind directly with my body. Basically the technique is the original taught by the first Buddha which works only with breath, body, concious and unconscious mind. No dogma, religion, no text to have in mind or any other object around, just pure meditation. The technique turned out to be very efficient on me, which doesn’t necessary work for everyone, but for me it does the trick. Now I don’t have any cravings or extreme aversions for anything anymore, including porn. I can finally live the life I ever wanted with meditation. If I stop meditation the cravings come back though. But I’ve made a very aware decision to live my life with meditation and finally see and hear everything which is around me without being in too negative or too positive thoughts. It’s such a relief. It is super hard at the beginning because all the sensations will come up but I just had to integrate meditation into the day come what may and everything was fine. I ignored work and all and some of my responsibilities at the beginning, just to meditate. The sacrifice was worth every minute of meditation. I can work more efficient than ever in my life, I don’t have any mental issues anymore. Everything is just good as it is now
I won’t recommend any organisation who offers pure meditation, because I don’t want to favour one or the other and I have only experience with one of them. Just watch out that there is no object except yourself (for example body and breath) involved during the mediation practice and you should be fine. There are a bunch of organisations which offer that but a lot of sects, cults and religions as well. Just be careful and make sure that you don’t get brain washed because basically the technique is very good to brain wash people. They can basically make you meditate with your toothbrush then and when your toothbrush is gone you’ll be incredibly sad and you’ll watch porn again
It all sounds like a miracle but it isn’t, it is simply hard work and every single person has to make the effort on it’s own. One first step to try if it works for you is search for an organisation around you and do a pure meditation course, be disciplined and just see if it’s working for you. No one can make any step in the progress for you. The power to overcome your addictions is all in your self guys, you just can’t see/feel it.
I hope you’ll all find the relief I found with whichever technique works for you. For me the problem is no problem anymore. I feel confident to unblock all my porn blockers now because I’m simply aware that I won’t consume porn in any moment of my life. I finally can delete all the porn from my disk or even leave it and will still never watch porn again, I’m in peace and balance with myself.
Last but not least: I want to thank all of you guys who helped with replies, new threads and all other kind of support. You’re all awesome and may all of you have peace in your mind too
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