I combined a few things – just going with what I felt was right after reading through all of the solo stuff. I did not have a complete plan other than to start with 6th Rite. Here are the results:
Note: Some minor explicit content.
I started off nude (I know, but well, if things got out of control, I did not want to worry! )
I started with the 6th Tibetan Rite. I did this 5 times. I know it says once is usually enough. Well I either am not good enough at it, just need more practice, or my sexual “energy” was way too high. The best I was able to go was a count of 5. I do know that at the end the breath comes back in with much force. The tensing-and-hold the abs in-and the chest up when you do take a breathe, makes the breath come in fast. This relaxed me a bit.
Next, I sat cross-legged on the floor. My mind really like the idea of Own-body sexual yoga (another of the practices). The thought of stimulating myself was very strong. I met that desire half way. This is where holding my penis comes in. I knew this would be the dangerous part. This is where I could slip and just masturbate my brains out, as it were.
I think having done the 6th rite helped here. Also I had been getting these thoughts that I should try holding myself without masturbating. Again I had nothing to lose cause I was in a bad state after waking (super horny).
So, I was sitting cross-legged, holding myself – no other stimulation no moving or anything. I had my eyes closed, which makes it easier to visualize. I did my interpretation of breathing in, through the nose.
I visualized my breath starting at my head and moving down to my genitals. I did not start with visualizing from the top of my head till part way through. I think I will do it that way next time form the start.
Anyway, I breathed in deeply all the way down till I focused on my genitals and held the “breath” there. Then I exhaled through the mouth while visualizing the “breath” going up my spine to my head then out.
I did this circle breathing while holding myself for a good amount of time. I am not sure how long. I lost track of time, but it could have been over 10 minutes.
Part of the way through this breathing started to “feel” very good. The pleasure built, and I kept breathing. Interesting thing is that I started to get soft during this. I had started out fully erect and needing to release. After I was part of the way through this breathing exercise I kind of forgot about masturbating. Really I did. I did not think about this shift till afterward. The need and desire to masturbate just kind of went away.
At the end I realized I was almost completely soft. I opened my eyes and stopped visualizing the breathe flowing in a circle through my body. I realized my hand was covered with pre-cum. I did not let this bother me. I felt really good. My body did seemed charged. I was full of – I guess the only way to say it is – energy. I was not in need of masturbating . I then went to the next step.
While still sitting cross-legged on the floor, I just let my body relax. I dropped my chin to my chest and closed my eyes. I let every muscle I could just relax. I let my mind relax. I again lost track of time. I assume I was like this for at least 5 minutes. It felt blissful.
I am not sure what brought me out of it. I could have sat there for hours I think. Just setting there relaxed after all of that was about the best part. The sexual tension was gone, and I felt good.
So there is my experiment. It seemed to work for me. I think I will try this each morning for a while and see what the results are. I will just wake 30 minutes early and start this practice. Maybe I will add some light masturbation, but if I do not feel I need to I will not. It’ll be at least a few weeks before I’d try that though. I want this to be successful for me.
I will say that not all the sexual “energy” is gone. It feels more like it is “controlled.” I do not have that pounding desire to masturbate right now.
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